Forever is a Dot:

Little Known

Toy, little drawn on faces,
feeling smaller than the way it sees,
there isn’t a way to be,
there isn’t a way to see,
if I am me,
why am I to be?

It can be seen by them all,
it can be felt by all the little ones,
they know the filthy truth,
they taste the dirt in your mouth,
they feel the deep,
canes inside dark caves,
know nothing,
know nothing,

way to follow,
way to giggle,
way to provide the audience with a happy ending,
sugary lies we tell ourselves,
perfect little futures,
perfect little moments,
disconnection from self,

one answer,
open my mouth,
see the truth,
missing the fashionable little dance,

dreading the exit,
dreading the empty,
dreading the absence,
it wasn’t complete,
but it was,
it was,
it was exactly what I painted,
every stroke,

every stroke,
more perfect than the last,
question the reason why,
it is just fear,
fear eating fear,
fear feeding fear,
fear fucking fear,

fear makes such a pretty little daughter,
pump her full,
every drop,
drip,
silly little way to be,
silly little bite of me,

lifetimes ago,
all of the reality was true,
it would last forever,
it did,
then it ended,
then it reset,
then it moved to the side,

monsters,
creatures,
claws,
screams,

cowering in the corner,
the scariest of them all,
hidden in the depths,
laugh, laugh, laugh,
poor little monster,
poor it, poor him, poor her,

dirty notes sang,
dirty notes on plates,
may cause excessive choking,
pick wisely,
fuck wildly,

take more,
take more,
pushed to that world,
alone, alone, alone,
one creature sees,

look away,
look down,
look up,
look inside,
peek deeper,

magical number,
closer to the truth,
no expert,
no knowing,
none of it,
just made up,

torn in your absence,
ripped in your presence,

funny how it happens,
silly how it spills,
fucked how you end,
tragic how we laugh.

She wanted me to teach her a lesson…

Light speaks

The very brilliant light, divine light. Words transcend beyond my imagination.

Sparkles in my memory. Day to day destroys such brilliance, makes us forget, makes us forget to never be afraid. We both saw the most brilliant of all brilliant lights that night, such power and mystic foreplay. We both awoke changed people, intertwining to form a new bubble of consciousness.

Spring loaded, explosions, and raspy words spoken. Giggling now. Fear was seeking. Destroy this little circle. Memories relived every moment. Even your eyes have a brilliant light that rips into my deep little empty. Pumping it full. Meaning and destination.

Path here, found to us both, and lived by us. Jealousy surrounds, but laughter erupts. Glance at each other in bliss, joy, and power. Meaning in our fingertips, in our simple sweet breath. Lighting rod of all our desires and all of our power. People will fall to their knees in worship. We are the gods, we are the light-bringers and light-creators. Feeling most exuberant. Rush. RUSH. Tingles flow. Flow inside and out, without form or need for form.

My bright little light is illuminating, from its dim dim begining. Share our fire. Share our brilliant fusion. Destroy, create, reason, and experience. Darling, free. Darling, I see. Inside power never known, inside of you, a song. When our chests are as one, when our futures are ours to belong.

Forever

Within this dot, you were the one that seemed to extend from the start to the end.

Within my thoughts, within my heart. Insanity’s wish. Dreading the moments that are to come. I should embrace. Hot breath on my neck, fingernails in your back. I can feel the future. It has already happened. Is this why it has such an exclamation point? Is it why you move me? Is it why I start to cry when I imagine such a future coming to pass?

Never have I felt such a happiness, such a body shaking and heart rendering happiness. Happiness as a word does not suffice. Hands held walking in, cute little connection felt by them all. They all can smell it. Look at those two, they got it, they have it, and we want it. But they have it. Only to dream to be him and to be with her. Only to realize that in the dream, I am him and I am with her. It makes no sense. I was never supposed to be but here I am seeing the insanity from the other side. If I just step up, if I just prove myself, if I just keep wanting to become.

Herein lies, the magic that has always been felt, the power that have always held, and with little cute little dances played. Stir the porridge and look up to catch her eyes, grins instantly. You could just eat it off her face. Trembling down into this hole. Face so wet. Hands so shaking. Start the car and drive. Snow on my windshield. Is this for real?

Stopping in the night to stop and think. Oh my god. Am I here? Am I there? It rips into me. Oh fucking holy heaven. My head turns into a carousel and she has joined the ride, she has even began to lead the ride out of the desert - into the deepest part of the brightest city in the world. With all the people, with all the vibrant living life, and all the creepy little fingers poking and prodding.  Erosion seldom happens here, as the end was already decided. It was never meant to end and that time was our friend.

Little nap ends suddenly. Destiny lies down the road. Wake up to find myself outside her door. Mere moments away. Her flesh touching mine. Her words vibrating into my brain like total ecstasy and goosebumps. Realization is felt with her too. This connection is more. MORE! Commit me now if I am wrong. I dare you with all of my little being. I will rip all of their faces. I will lead you into the tomorrow you crave and need. I will be the one to break through all the higher dimensions with you.

We will be the freaks that stand on top of it all. Little moments collapse faster now. Heart is heard from miles around. THUMP THUMP.. she is there. Watching. Waiting. Her eyeballs tremble at him with the hidden knowledge, with the hidden truth not admitted. It has all come to be, it has all come into this circle, tighter the circle comes, and the dot is found, the dot is to be, the dot is forever. As I turn to knock on the door…

Rip Rip Rip

Brush. Warmth. Fingernails drag along.

Join my hand and I shall be the leader of this adventure. I will make what I want happen. I will make it be my future. I will make it be. Drag her into the picture like a screaming toddler. Laughing so.

If only this was drug induced...

I do not want you to be mine. I do not want to take posession.

I just want to join with you. Be a part of you, combine our pieces, construct a better being. Experience each other in ways thought unheard of. Add everything that I am to the table in hopes that you may find a superior part or two. Get more perfect. In exchange, I just want to be a part of your dimension. Adorable little creatures flutter about and you fly between my senses like a wonderfully smelling buzzing fly.

Restore the possibilities. All the things that I want to do in my life, are they things that I was destined to do but somehow heard of my future from inside my head which led me to have the desire to do these things? Paradox.

Your lips have never been sweeter.